I sat down to write.

Nothing.

I started early.

Woke up. Went outside. Moved my body.

I like to change my state first thing.

Shake off the cobwebs. Get sunlight in my eyes

Sometimes I run.

Sometimes I walk.

Sometimes I stand under a cold shower and briefly regret every decision that led me there.

Usually, something begins to stir.

An idea.

A sentence.

But not today.

Today, there was nothing.

Just the blank page in front of me.

I made breakfast.

Moved things around my desk.

By midday, I had consumed enough caffeine to kick-start a moped.

And still.. Nothing

The day was passing.

And I was tempted to give up, move on to something else.

But every time my brain wanted to go to the “easier” task.

I stayed and fought with the words in front of me.

That is when I realised:

This was the thing to write about.

Not the morning routine.

Not creativity.

Not even the blank page.

Resistance.

That invisible force that appears whenever we try to do something meaningful.

It rarely announces itself by saying:

“Don’t do the work.”

It is far more convincing than that.

It says:

“You’re not ready.”

“What is that shiny thing over there!”

“Do a little more research.”

“Start tomorrow when you feel inspired.”

The more something matters, the louder it seems to become.

You rarely feel resistance towards things that mean nothing to you.

You feel it before the difficult conversation.

Before the first run.

Before sharing something honest.

Before becoming the person you keep saying you want to be.

We often assume that creative people wake up feeling creative.

That disciplined people feel motivated.

That confident people feel ready.

I don’t think they do.

I think they simply stopped waiting for the feeling to arrive.

They begin tired.

They begin uncertain.

They begin badly.

But they begin.

Today, I wanted the words to come easily.

They didn’t.

I wanted an idea worth sharing.

I couldn’t find one.

But I stayed.

And eventually, underneath all the distraction, doubt and coffee, there it was.

Whatever you have been avoiding, begin before you feel ready.

Make the call.

Write the first sentence.

Put on your trainers.

Start badly, if you must.

Resistance is strongest before you begin.

On the other side of beginning, there is momentum.

And sometimes, on the other side of an entire day of nothing…

There is this.

Have a great week ahead

Kia Kaha & love

Chris Xx